Sia refuses to show her face in public, instead obscuring it with a massive blond wig and choosing to perform her hit “Chandelier” with her back turned to the crowd at the Grammy Awards.
In only her fourth interview (she’s not a fan of those either) with Kristen Wiig for, ironically, Interview magazine, Sia explained why she isn’t interested in the bits and pieces that come along with fame.
“For me, writing and recording the songs are fine, but then promoting it is usually, like … I think Tom Waits called it ‘doing the dishes’-promo, talking about yourself all the time, answering the same questions for, like, a trillion magazines or TV shows or radio shows. And it sort of makes you feel crazy. It literally f–ks with my sanity. I stop feeling authentic because I’m trying to find ways to say the same thing differently. And after a while, you can’t. It becomes bad for my self-esteem,” the 39-year-old said.
In fact, she nearly gave away her album, 1000 Forms of Fear.
“My original plan was to give it away. But it had to come out on a major label, and they’re not going to want to give it away for free. I had no plans to promote it or tour it. I was newly sober and I didn’t want to be a famous singer. So I delivered it to the label in the U.K…But we weren’t sure what would happen if I wasn’t willing to show my face and do promo and go on tour and do the traditional kind of pop strategy. So I had no expectations,” she recalled. “Because of that, I was able to take a great risk, which is the risk of failure as a solo artist, because I was already gratefully making good money writing pop songs for pop stars.”
The glamour of Hollywood and the music industry quickly wore off for the singer/songwriter, although initially, she was excited about Grammy after parties.
“I was excited because I got invited to these big, fancy parties. And then you realize, ‘If I’m going to go, I’m going to need to get a tan. I’m going to need to have my roots done. I’m going to have extensions, probably. I’m going to get a stylist for sure. I’m going to have to work out five times that week with Jennifer Aniston’s trainer.’ This is commerce and I’m $5,000 in the hole just to go to a party,” she said.
She also, wisely, avoids social media because she knows she isn’t able to tolerate the criticism and that leaving it out of her life will keep her somewhat normal.
“Most people don’t have to be under that pressure, and I’d like to be one of them. I don’t want to be followed by paparazzi. I don’t go on Twitter. Because when people say things like, I don’t know, ‘I hope you get cancer and die,’ it hurts my feelings,” she said honestly.
Focus on the music, nothing else.
“I’m not willing to give up my actual self…” she continues. “Music is for your ears, not your eyes, right?…I want you to be entertained. I want you to get the full package. I’d just rather it not center around whether or not I have cellulite,” the Australian artist added.
That’s what it should be about, Sia.